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The women of Watsomba and the politics inside of us


It was privilege that led me to become an activist and this is my story. My mum doesn’t have to ask for permission from anyone. She just does what she has to do, respectfully so. My dad’s sister has a common questioning tagline which has spurred her life. She always questions “Ngenyi urukubvuma zvinhu zvakadariso wena iwe?” (* translated to –Why are you agreeing to such things happening to you?) . My other late Aunt Ever may, would just give out a smirk laugh and you would know that in her ‘softness” she is not going to budge to anything which the brothers were suggesting. I’ve watched people approach me cautiously saying “Nyasha ane nharo!!” in my case most commonly translated to Nyasha is stubborn. I know I’m stubborn and there’s nothing I am going to do about it since it’s in the genes and engrained in the awakenings of my birth. I learnt from these generals that I so proudly mention in this blog.

Even though I didn’t know what it was growing up, I discovered that the life of a woman is political and that it is contested in the public space. Attempts at incessantly weakening it in the private space knows no boundaries. Society does not readily us accept as ambitious, unapologetic, driven, truth seekers, patriarchy smashers and fighters. However the fight to become all this keeps us thriving. For me this is our politics.  I see this politics in the daughters born of my dad and his brothers. We are wired the same and we don’t live our lives to please people instead we are a questioning generation that is set out to pursue our dreams and goals. This all started in Watsomba where our fathers were born and the traditional home we inherited by birth. I never met my grandmother but I know she did something right in my father. My dad is a man of choice. I don’t remember for once having him dictate what I was going to become in my life. My dad’s late older brother didn’t want to hear that we were wearing petticoats when we young. He thought were too young for them and they were burdensome for our young playful selves, so we got shorts and trousers so we could play freely. A privilege some of our age mates did not have. They were not allowed to wear the same simply because they were girls and it was inappropriate. The other year, I got really disturbed because I had to escort a friend at 30 to buy her first pair of trousers. The new husband had said he wanted to see her in trousers, so we were hunting for a decent one which he rejected because he wanted tighter jeans on her. Up to today I don’t understand what that was all about.

More so,  our fathers sent us to good government schools which they could afford because they understood that education was going to protect us from the harshness of public life which they had not control of. They had done their best to protect in the private family life and I am content to this day. Now as a grown up, I fully understand what that was all about. It was a political ploy to ensure that we’d survive. I watch myself having to grind and fight some more because I am woman. I’ve had to prove myself ten times more outside what I have on my CV. I’ve seen male colleagues get consultancies they are not qualified for and yet they call me to assist them for the same things I would have pitched for and failed to get. Whilst this blog is on celebrating women not a rant on discrimination, the other day I convinced myself that perhaps it is a good thing that they know that I am good at what I do. One day it will pay. The journey to power and influence has hard work put into it after all.

I hope that one day we are going to be politically conscious of who were are and our life experiences. Sometimes the vision we have for ourselves and the plans we set to achieve determine the leverage our personal politics will give us in life. Whilst our breakthroughs come by chance; a plan, a vision, a truth, a standpoint and a little bit of integrity and humility is what we need to thrive. I have noted that the strength which the women in my family have has pushed us to purse the things we desire without the slightest doubt in our capabilities. My sisters and I are privileged to have watched our mothers and our dads’ sisters make decisions in the family. This is something that made me want to be a feminist. It felt odd to have come across women who do not have a say or who fear to stand out and speak for themselves.

Whilst at this point I haven’t established how our family has come to regard women highly like this; I am fully convinced that it was the benefit of listening to everyone that made our family thrive. I have not seen families which disrespect women that are united. We have our flaws but our mothers and my aunts are always there to take the stance of unity. It within this, that my friends’ often ask me why I have a very close relationship with my cousins. I always tell them that it is because the women of Watsomba together with our mothers. They always had choice to say what they want to say, to do what they want to do and above all they were free to teach us to become anything we wanted to be.

So against this background, I have always wanted this for the women of this world and I work for that. Women have to know the power that is embedded in them towards working with people. Unity is such a vital aspect of our identity and who we are. Nothing is achieved from an individualistic attitude. We have to unite. From all this, I was thinking that unity is one key aspect lacking as we approach 2018 elections is unity and value. In my mind, I tried to map what we need to do to get to a new Zimbabwe because the one we are in is currently suffocating our dignity.

From a young age, we women are taught leadership before the boy get a hang of what leadership is. Whilst this is controversial depending on how one takes it- I think it’s a point which we need to reflect on. Girls start taking responsibly of families at a young age. We learn to cook and clean before we can dispute why the boys are not being taught the same. We feed people through our work before we can even decide who we want to become. The burden of responsibility is placed heavily on us as shown by the gender roles set for us. I would want a world in which the girls and boys have the same roles but were are on transitional journey to see that happen in our lifetime. However, that experience of leadership must be harnessed to more pragmatic levels in terms of translating our private politics to the public one as women. We are capable of influencing a lot of things. Surely, if we can cook for families and keep humans from starving at household level, what could go wrong if were trusted with feeding the nation with our intellect? What could go wrong if we were to cook public policies that are solution focused to the practical ending of all forms of poverty? After all, we are take responsibility of most of the domestic burdens in our private lives. Should we not be trusted with the public burdens of this life; the governance, the leadership; and everything in between the politics.

In all this, my experience of life has taught me not to look to my abilities as a woman but instead, to dig up the unique lessons of people who dare to fuel their courage when the social system is saying something else. This is my politics and that’s how I govern myself to push on and to thrive. We women have our own politics which we need to build on. If I had not seen my dad’s sister questioning all her life, I would not be where I am to today. She taught me to refuse the things I don’t want and the things I don’t understand. My sisters, all of us ask questions and yes; we talk back. We react in the moment and we are strong characters like that. We are known as ‘Machuma”. This is the politics within us. I now they are a lot of us out there; in the comfort of our privacy.

Perhaps this blog is a plea to ask us to question. If we can’t do it then we may have to learn to do so for the sake of the future of our children. In a globalised digital world like this, we already have a much bigger audience which our mothers never had. We have the advantage of being heard. So in preparation of the future we have to question. We have to do and not wait for approval. We have to rise against the things which curtail us. On a day, sooner than this one Zimbabwe is going to demand this from us. Liberia did and there was ceasefire because of the tenacity of the women of that country. They were stubborn enough to end war in their country. The time for some things to end in our country has come, so has the time for us to fuel our tenacity as the women of this country if our children are to enjoy the legacy which this nation has for them as their birth right. Let’s not lose this in apathy. We don’t have to all contest but your personal politics must give you a responsibility of patriotism spelt out to desire freedom and hope for every one of us in this nation. Simple acts of voting for leaders with integrity will go a long way and making them account even. We may not do the risky things such as going to the streets to protest but they must know that they will not mess with the power we award them with our vote. Our men know us. They know we are stubborn. So they too must know.

 

 

 

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The Shower


The Shower

I shudder and wonder why blood doesn’t have a less revolting color. It would be easier to forget the misery of seeing my face bleeding from the punches. So I move towards the mirror in the bathroom, voices of regret reminding me to leave whilst I’m still alive. Perhaps, that reminder is supposed to make it easy for a woman like me to pack her bags after four years of marriage to a man everyone adores except for me. Tete Mai Kumbi said he would change. She convinced me that four years in a marriage is nothing and so are my feelings.  As I clean myself in the shower, I remind myself that I made a decision a long time ago not cry. Why would the tiled bathroom floor enjoy the privilege of tasting my tears? So I let the tap run a bit, dragging myself into deep thoughts.

Moving away from the mirror, I stagger and drop myself in the shower. I let the water runoff as I drown in reflection. I have lost a lot of things and I have nothing anymore. All I have are memories. It’s been a long journey into this marriage. The water is running in the shower with grace absent in my life- which in the moment seems unfair.  My mother died before I met my husband. Maipa was there for me right from the moment he found me in deep grief. He came to save me from my broken self. I never loved him at all even on the day of our wedding. Throughout the ceremony I cried. Sinking in premonitions of impending fate, I sensed this marriage thing would be a struggle, though it felt like he came to save me at the same time.

 

I hated Maipa from the day that I met him. That wide smile of his was something I had never had.  Smiling was foreign to me as evidenced even by our wedding photos.  I wished him death on the day he asked me out for the first date. I hated him for the having the things which I did not have especially that smile. When he proposed, I wanted to kill him right in front of the proponents of the surprise engagement party but I said yes, choking from the emotional trap that had been placed in front of me in form of an engagement ring.

I said yes with a callous churn of my intestines, dreading the self for lying to him and to his whole world but marriage had come. My hate for this man was transformational, at least to me. It is what saved me when the blows started coming in. The hate would then always be the wall at the centre of it all.  For the silly reasons he punched me for, I reminded myself that the justice I had given myself; was not loving this man right up to the altar.

To me, marriage was the trap of the generations. It was the only thing we knew except that, in my case I chose to marry this man and followed the best practice approved by the society. I didn’t have to get impregnated first to marry Maipa. For an orphan, I had done well showing the world that morality was tangible but not for their pleasure. I did things the right way, making sure that I got into the marital bed a virgin with a hymen I kept for myself and not for him. My mother had been in the same trap, a different one though. She had woken up and discovered that she had been married off and was suddenly supposed to pack her bags and go to her husband. A man she never knew.

 

I knew Maipa. I said yes to his proposal knowing that I could never love him, after all I could never love anyone even myself. The demand for me to marry was not pressed on me by society, it was just because the only hope I had was to attach myself to someone that would remind me to live, somehow. I was not a hero like my mother; she adored my father and held on. I would never adore Maipa, not in a life time. I didn’t have to respect him either and that didn’t kill me.  I belonged to the rebellious generation of wives who would die at the hands of the husbands with little courage to leave. These are the women who held on to the courage of fighting within themselves until they could strike. I was going to have my day on which I would fight Maipa and tell him that I never loved him. For now the beatings would come with my hate for him. I could always clean myself up after each beating; after all I have the privilege of running water in my house. This was the resilience beyond that of my mother; losing a bit of it was the only thing that could have killed me.  You see, my mother was resilient, never dying from anything that was thrown at her; even the hottest of infidelity waters from my father. My father couldn’t break her soul. He only managed to break her bones.  That’s how it was and I think for the rest of the women of her generation.

Jerking myself to consciousness, I take off my clothes, looking into the full size mirror serving as the covering for the shower. I pay attention to my body something that I do a lot these days. I’ve become conscious of its scars choosing to forget what it looked like before they appeared. Perhaps it is just to check if I am still human enough to walk out of this house.  As I inspect myself, I feel my skin with my fingers.  I close my eyes and question how the world has failed to rescue me from this mess? I hear Maipa’s breathing, and the dreadful sound of his footsteps as he walks around the bedroom. A feeling of authentic hate surges in my body, one that makes me want to vacate it immediately and find that place where I’m not responsible for the things that transform me from being a victim to a villain at the sight of this man.

I decide to get into the shower, my favourite hiding place where I let water flow on my body hoping to feel cleansed from shame.  I run my hands all over my body trusting them as the only gentle ones on this earth.  I continue to feel my skin hoping for some smoothness to be transferred to my soul. Opening my eyes, I touch my facial scars which I can locate without a mirror.  I move my hand down my throat and the familiar fear of gripping hands invades my mind. Maipa has choked me enough times for me to die but I am alive. In that moment I wonder what would have happed if I had loved myself a bit and stopped feeling choked as Carol constantly talks about. She says self-love is the only thing that will save me from these escapes to the bathing room where the coolness of water is my salvation. I am not sure which world she is living in. It probably doesn’t exist. What is self-love? I move my hands to my shoulders, carefully caressing them in the hope that one day they will not carry a burden. Everything will be light and flawless as the water running down my body right now.

This is the water that flows on my breasts and does not bring the soothing feel I’m expecting as the water attempts to caress them.  The breasts which Maipa cannot look past without drooling, perhaps the only thing he values on me. They said that it showed that he loved me and every bit of my body.  At least he was still touching me. I think it’s a lie. With each licking and smooching, I die a trillion times. His disgusting tongue on my breasts feels like a thorn in my flesh, piercing, the tendons with precision to render my soul non-existent. They are not a sight of pleasure anymore. Cupping them in my hands, I wish I could have another child, yes just to see if I can give life from within me just as my ugly worthless self. Perhaps, asking for another child as I intend to tonight is a bit too much. My body has known enough violence, labour pains may be my final torture.

“Are you still cleaning yourself up?”  Maipa shouts

“Yes” I respond in almost a whisper.

“Hurry up, I want to sleep”

It takes time to clean off blood something which I think he doesn’t understand. As I move my hands around my stomach, I massage it slowly with the lubricating water. Drawing to the caesarean scar, I remember the days when Maita was born, carrying buckets of water needed for my baby’s care. They had all congregated in our house. I had to clean up after them; his relatives popularly known as the in laws. Until then, I was a good daughter in law.

 

However, my body already physically tired from giving birth gave up together with my sanity.   I would stand all day and carry water into the house from the makeshift well we had outside before Maipa was finally promoted and he managed to pay for the drilling of the borehole. I could have killed them just that there was not enough water to drown them all in the well. I am sure by the time I got fed up I had enough strength to carry the whole clan congregating in my house throw them into the well. Even the justice system was going to pardon me.  I couldn’t believe their luck in the moment. I recalled the stolen memory of bonding with my baby that went with hosting visitors in the absence of water. I couldn’t bond with my baby enough because I was taking care of other people who didn’t give a shit about me.  My mother had this unique ability to make everyone fetch water from the local township borehole, something I failed to learn when she was still alive.  I woke up and announced that they were no longer welcome in my home.  It was time for everyone to go back to where they came from.

So I made Maipa chase them away as well. He had to choose between having bad sex with me or getting his people to go. That was the day I saw the deep hate which he also had for me in his eyes. I don’t think he changed the moment that first punch came in just above my caesarean scar. He had always hated me the way I hated him. He was just able to hide it well. The second punch didn’t come that day, but I got flowers instead, hours later. I put them in a vase full of water. I watched my Mother in law pour the water I had put in the vase in the dog’s plate. She said he was thirsty smirking with the air of a glorified bitch. She got lucky that day Zimbabwe is land locked; I wanted to bundle her in her son’s car and drive to throw her in an ocean and watch her become part of the sea’s food chain.  I wasn’t sure how she could tell he was thirsty. Deep within me I knew Kutu, the faithful family dog and my mother in law had some kind of connection that made me hate both of them. My flowers died, my mother in law did not leave and more punches came. Her relatives left though, I made sure they did. I stopped cooking and feeding them. How could I have fetched water to cook for ungrateful people as if it was my fault that I didn’t have relatives who would come in to visit?  The day she died I experienced graceful peace to this point in the shower.

As I feel the beautiful scar, I feel it is the only beautiful scar on my body. In that moment, I become fully aware of the fact that this scar is not going anywhere. Even this water running down my body will not wash it off.  I move my hands to my hips; I bent a little to let in the water to clean the vagina which has been trailed with the controversy on how I must wash it. There’s no scar there just the smell which Maipa would complain about everyday he heaved his big body on me without tactic. My vagina was the most washed vagina on the globe, I did everything I could to stop this smell which became the after sex.  His best love note was to remind me to wash the vagina, my vagina. I searched for scars and chose not to see them at the same time. From the days of carrying the small bucket into the bedroom to wash myself of cum, when we were still staying with my in laws to the en suite years later when we had worked hard to build what we had. Newly wedded, I remember carrying a small bucket to clean myself, there was no wiping after sleeping with a man you never loved, one had to clean themselves off the misery with water, the real thing.

 

My hands on my thighs as I draw to my legs towards the feet that brought me under the frightful wings of this man in marriage, I can’t figure out how I am still in one piece. Silently, in the shower I cry, yearning to soothe myself. I sit, right there in the shower realizing just how tired I am. Now Maipa is snoring, probably fatigued from beating me up earlier today. Where do those who give up get the strength to do so? Sitting down under the cold shower, I reflect on the need to leave with nowhere to go and no one to run to. I grieve for my child.  My son doesn’t deserve this.

 

If I could evaporate like this water I would escape into thin air. I can hear the sound of the cold shower scorning me for failing to wash away from this situation like it does at the slightest chance given. Suddenly, it’s not the sound coming from the shower that I can hear anymore. It’s a noise calling me to consciousness. Maipa is abusing me but not as much as I abuse myself. The words of self-hate invade my mind in the moment. I don’t think I can ever escape beyond this shower.  This sound is my hiding place. Maybe my life would have been much better if I had loved my husband’s relatives. If I had not hidden the groceries and fed them well when all they did was lurk around and feed off my sweat. I question if they deserve it at all.  After all, their son is on a daily mission to kill me with words, but most often with his fists. This, I reflect on as I watch as the water trickling into the drain and wish to no avail if I were liquid then I’d follow and settle in the sewer. Possibilities of evaporating or sinking into the soil feel far more welcome than what I’m living for in the moment.

I stop the shower and I dry myself up this time not facing the mirror convinced that no being can do this twice. He’d told me that he liked me clean when we first met and I’ve been clean.   I have failed to comprehend his love for water. I am certain that this love would never purify the devil.

As I finish showering I dry myself and I am tiptoeing into the bedroom, checking on Matipa for a second. He is already fast asleep in his cot. I reach out to touch my son’s face hesitantly and move away before I can do so. I think I am tired of human beings. Even my own sons. Rushing into bed, naked, I slowly and make it without waking Maipa. Tonight, I deserve some peace which has already been awarded to me by the shower.

Just as I settle to try to get some sleep, Maipa’s hands are on my breasts. The same breasts he pulled me with as he was bashing me against the wall. I cringe and whimper; I’ve never known this pain in my entire life. It’s not physical, just that his hands have the skillful craft of painfully invading my soul. It almost feels as if its physical torture. I remain still, not ready to fight him off even in my lifetime, I wait for him to do what he wants. In the next few seconds I know that I will die again as he inserts his penis into me.  No matter how much I condition my brain to take in all this, I die every time this happens. He whispers something and I think I didn’t hear him quite well.

“What did you say?’ I ask him

“I said I love you” he repeats as he continues to molest my breasts

I remain quiet. My silence is a fight. It has always been. Nothing on my body moves except my thoughts which run amok the moment I try to process what he has just said.

“Why?’…Why do you love me?’

‘I love your fighting spirit. I’ve put you through a lot and you have been strong. Never fighting”. He says as he inserts his finger in my vagina. I cringe and stiffen. I desperately want to freeze, and I envy water’s ability to do so. Instead my body is warm. So warm I have betrayed myself again. Now Maipa is going to draw pleasure from that warmth. There is heat also coming from his body.

“I don’t remember you saying I love you ever to me ever since we got married my wife.”

With a shrewd laugh mixed with shock I want to strangle him. Does he honestly think I will ever let those words out of my mouth for him? Instead I remain still, like a log lying there. I totally shut myself out of this whole sex thing. Just then he starts kissing my body something he has never done before. Perhaps today is a different day. So I let him kiss me taking my mind elsewhere in this moment. This sex has to happen in a brief portion of time for the sentence of marriage which I am serving.

‘Why do you want me to tell you that I love you?’ I give a tired reply.

Just then he gets off me and looks at me deep in the eye. For a second I think it’s because he is angry and I am getting more blows before I sleep. I begin to get my mind ready for that. I wait for him to shove me off the bed. Then he will rise and kick me first; from there he will go after my neck and choke me. Punches will follow to his satisfaction. I will not scream as always. Maita and Matipa are asleep, so I will allow him to beat me in my stillness and pray silently that my sons will not wake up to this madness. I anticipate that after that he will rape me at the end and tell me to go wash myself. But that does not happen. As he continues to look at me, I remain still determined not to go anywhere, waiting to hit the floor after he pushes me. That mess doesn’t come. Tears start flowing from my face. The time had come; my mum had always said the truth must be told when one is still alive.

“I never loved you even at the altar’ I reply with fierce calmness. Finally, I break the silence without tactic. Perhaps the bravery I have in the shower had come to rescue me. My husband didn’t move.

‘I know and I have hated you for that ‘he responds almost whispering

“Why did you marry me then?” I ask him

“You were ideal for me I guess. At least for who I was becoming. I needed you so that I could thrive”.

‘Well. Have you thrived then?’ I ask him knowing the answer to this question. Maipa was the happy executive who could hide his vulnerabilities from the world but not from me. The punches I got in the past four years showed me just how vulnerable he was. This was the reason why I had stayed. His vulnerability was a disability and he wasn’t going to make it without anyone assisting him even if they became a punching bag.

‘Yes; when I am with you like this everything makes sense. Do you love me? He asked again

‘No’ I answer certain of every feeling of hate I’ve had for him.

‘Are you going to leave me?”

“No. I want another baby” I answer in a whisper.

I wanted another baby. And this was the truth. I knew there was a life out there in me that I could create again which was not my own. He was there to give me that child. So in this moment by asking for a third child I was looking for a life which I couldn’t envision without Maipa. How could I live without him and my sons? This is the man I hated not to have.

‘Maybe you should leave.’’ he suggested

‘To where, you and the boys have been my life in the past four years. I don’t think there’s anything for me out there.’ I responded certain of the fact that I was dependent on him contrary to what everyone said about me being a victim of abuse. I was just loyal, the way women hold on to men who hurt them when they cheat. Maipa had never cheated on me.

‘So you will stay?’’ Maipa asked

‘Yes, I need that baby’’ I said almost snorting. Why would I leave and plan for a baby at the same time with this man? Perhaps he was not listening.

“If you make decision to stay, what makes you sure that I can stand your unresponsiveness to me?’’ he asked. At this point in this conversation I got lost I don’t remember Maipa touching me after the birth of our child.  I shrugged instead not sure how I could let him know that a mere brush from him was terror to my body. At this point I wished we had had sex instead of talking then we would have both slept and woken up to a new day. The experience of violence was better than having this conversation. Maipa slid his hands on my body again and stopped.

‘Go and take a shower I’ll wait for you.’ He said.

I’m not sure why I was dirty to my husband but every time after the beating I’d be ordered to bath, after an argument I be summoned to a shower.  If only he knew that I was having an affair with water. Whenever he punched me and cracked my skin the water was there to sooth me. When he locked me in the bedroom without food when I had threatened to leave him, I survived with water from the bathing room. I opened the tap this time putting a stopper for the last time getting ready to drown myself in the tub. I’d live and not die in the companionship of the water.  He was giving me that that child tonight in this shower. Certain, I got out of  tub  and went to call him.

“Maipa, can you help me shower?”

The End…..

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My Fragile Writer’s Conscience


I haven’t done some personal writing in a while. The “while” has been about two years and the reason has been the fact that amidst the personal challenges I have faced, I allowed a lot of toxicity to cloud my writing space. The other day, I was searching for something to read and I realized that missed reading my own work which comes from the heart space.

The sad thing is, I have piles of research writings, papers, reports, and other work related staff which I have been writing on. I didn’t stop writing and yet it feels like I did. I have been writing for others and not myself. I’ve had this realisation a few weeks ago and I have been living with a conscience which asks why I am not writing? The same questions comes from people who feel I should have had a book or two by now. I can brush off people questioning me about my absence in the writing space but when that questions comes from deep within you, it hits hard. I have been writing so that I mostly survive and have shaped my career around writing. Still, I am not satisfied. It feels like I’ve been running away from the call to write.

My conscience has not given me rest. Every time I think of this I have so many scenarios mapped in my mind. I think of the writings I thought of working on and did not do so. Some of them could have helped other people. Some of them could have paid some bills for me and some of them could have opened career opportunities for me. Still I chose not to write. My conscious has risen above the writers’ block, the fears and the procrastination. Now I’m experiencing writer’s grief.

On a good day, I would have preferred if my conscience would just let me be but then my challenge is I had relied so much on my writing as a spiritual awakening at some point. It’s a source of release and identity I have to turn to for healing and everything in between. At times, I look at where I am and realise if I had continued writing for myself, I would have handled some painful situations in my life better and the beautiful ones would still remain eventful in my heart. This has been a grieving process for me. Today I will celebrate this small mile stone, I have penned this first personal blog in a while that has nothing to do with deadlines and log frames but deep connection with the truth from insde urging me to write. And this time forever.

 

 

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We are Evan Mawarire


 

We are Evan Mawarire, we are human beings

We are Evan Mawarire , you have arrested us all

We are Evan Mawarire, No longer sure of our future

We are Evan Mawarire, no longer silent and not ready for defeat either

We are Evan Mawarire, taking fear out of the masses

We are Evan Mawarire, they dangle carrots in our faces for the million marches for us to latch on

and sink buton sticks in our bodies and under our feet when we dare to rise.

We are Evan Mawarire , tired of the effects of handout leadership

We are Evan Mawarire, living for non-violence and valuing the cost of dignity in life

We are Evan Mawarire, shaping the voice of the people

We are Evan Mawarire, encouraging citizens forward to become full citizens; who make their leaders account

We are behind the prison walls with him blanketed with hunger, lost dreams and hopes, forced to migrate by our own

We are Evan Mawarire, being the modern slaves of impunity

We are Evan Mawarire, forced to live in poverty, yet we have the people power and the numbers on our side.

We are Evan Mawarire, trading survival to go to battle with a bible and a flag

We are Evan Mawarire motivating and inspiring Zimbabwe to pursue change

We are Evan Mawarire, shaping the narrative of Zimbabwe to make it a better one

We are Evan Mawarire forced to bare the cold night in prison walls

We are Evan Mawarire, sacrificing our comfort in search of hope

We are Evan Mawarire seeking and speaking our truth

We are Evan Mawarire falsely accused of pushing the western agenda every time we ask for food ..

We are Evan Mawarire , searching for an ounce of hope

We are Evan Mawarire, receiving buton sticks and teargas for asking for dignity

We are Evan Mawarire, dragged into poverty by the leaders with dead hearts

We are Evan Mawarire, forced to look our children in their eyes in the absence of provision

We are Evan Mawarire, voicing still

In any position, you are Evan Mawarire;

The police is Evan Mawarire, standing in queues for cash with us

The army is Evan Mawarire, worried about the next source of food

The cross border traders are Evan Mawarire, worried about the cut off of their source of income

The venders are Evan Mawarire, daring the streets just for a sale

The ministers in Government are Evan Mawarire, they too must be tired of  their own corruption

The nurses and doctors are Evan Mawarire, yearning to work with enough resources to serve the people.

The young are Evan Mawarire, looking for space to contribute to the future of their nation

The teachers are Evan Mawarire, struggling to retain the dignity of their profession once more

Our children are Evan Mawarire, looking up to us for a future brighter than our stolen one

Evan Mawarire is not one person

Evan Mawarire is not one pastor

Evan Mawarire is us

We are Evan Mawarire and he is us

Evan is in jail with us ..

 

We are Evan Mawarire, we are human beings

We are Evan Mawarire , you have arrested us all

We are Evan Mawarire, No longer sure of our future

We are Evan Mawarire, no longer silent and not ready for defeat either

We are Evan Mawarire, taking fear out of the masses

We are Evan Mawarire, they dangle carrots in our faces for the million marches for us to latch on

and sink buton sticks in our bodies and under our feet when we dare to rise.

We are Evan Mawarire , tired of the effects of handout leadership

We are Evan Mawarire, living for non-violence and valuing the cost of dignity in life

We are Evan Mawarire, shaping the voice of the people

We are Evan Mawarire, encouraging citizens forward to become full citizens; who make their leaders account

We are behind the prison walls with him blanketed with hunger, lost dreams and hopes, forced to migrate by our own

We are Evan Mawarire, being the modern slaves of impunity

We are Evan Mawarire, forced to live in poverty, yet we have the people power and the numbers on our side.

We are Evan Mawarire, trading survival to go to battle with a bible and a flag

We are Evan Mawarire motivating and inspiring Zimbabwe to pursue change

We are Evan Mawarire, shaping the narrative of Zimbabwe to make it a better one

We are Evan Mawarire forced to bare the cold night in prison walls

We are Evan Mawarire, sacrificing our comfort in search of hope

We are Evan Mawarire seeking and speaking our truth

We are Evan Mawarire falsely accused of pushing the western agenda every time we ask for food ..

We are Evan Mawarire , searching for an ounce of hope

We are Evan Mawarire, receiving buton sticks and teargas for asking for dignity

We are Evan Mawarire, dragged into poverty by the leaders with dead hearts

We are Evan Mawarire, forced to look our children in their eyes in the absence of provision

We are Evan Mawarire, voicing still

In any position, you are Evan Mawarire;

The police is Evan Mawarire, standing in queues for cash with us

The army is Evan Mawarire, worried about the next source of food

The cross border traders are Evan Mawarire, worried about the cut off of their source of income

The venders are Evan Mawarire, daring the streets just for a sale

The ministers in Government are Evan Mawarire, they too must be tired of  their own corruption

The nurses and doctors are Evan Mawarire, yearning to work with enough resources to serve the people.

The young are Evan Mawarire, looking for space to contribute to the future of their nation

The teachers are Evan Mawarire, struggling to retain the dignity of their profession once more

Our children are Evan Mawarire, looking up to us for a future brighter than our stolen one

Evan Mawarire is not one person

Evan Mawarire is not one pastor

Evan Mawarire is us

We are Evan Mawarire and he is us

 

Include my voice

My Journey towards Global Networking in my Career


KVG: Today on the show we have Nyasha Sengayi, from the Source International. She is here to discuss her experience on youth participation in the global space as a young person. Welcome Nyasha to the show.

Nyasha: Thank you KVG. It’s good to be back on the show.

KVG: Okay , Nyasha what has been your involvement in global networks for advocacy.

Nyasha : Thank you KVG, I am a campaign strategist , I design campaign s to advance women’s rights mostly. I started  networking with global networks at the inception of my career when I was selected to be part of the ISIS – WICCE- ( Women’s Cross Cultural Exchange Programme) which was premised on the creation of movement building on the globe. Based on the experience that I got from the training and the motivation to send a message for peace, I decided to start Source International which employs campaigns based programming and Applied research to deliver it’s core mandate of attaining dignified futures for women.. From there, I was priviledged able to work with V Day on a Campaign dubbed One Billion Rising which was drawn from the UN Women statistic which states that one in three women will be raped or suffer from some kind of physical abuse; that translates to One Billion Women being physically abused at any given time in their life. This campaign has been running in more than 207 countries and we have been able to work on trying to show the world what a billion people look like as we dance on the streets across the world. Moreover, I was selected to the Global Youth Ambassador together with other young people from Africa and Europe by the Swedish Youth Council. My role is to deliberate on strategies on how to get young people to build and create stronger institutions through internal democracy as a way of making our activism more efficient and effective. We are also using the platform to discuss challenges pertinent to young people and to come up with strategies that will strengthen our participation in any space.

KVG: Woow , Thank you Nyasha . So how can one become part of these Global Networks?

Nyasha: There are so many opportunities for young people to participate in Global networks and they can be taken up on vertical and horizontal levels. Most importantly, young people need to be knowledgeable and nature a culture of researching on their areas of interests or the networks that can better shape what they are mostly passionate about. In wake of this, they are lot of opportunities for reputable fellowship programmes online which young people can be a part of. Adding on, Social Media has provided an opportunity for young people to expand their participation in a lot of online process. The internet has opportunities for young people to participate in Webinars, e-conferences, LinkedIn platforms and groups as well. All these offer information on diverse global movements which young people can join in. My journey to becoming Campaign strategist was mostly shaped by my online interaction particularly on Social Media. My interactions with key global women’s rights leaders such as Barbara Mhangami, Monique Wilson, Susan Swan, Colani Hlaswako and many others were pertinent in shaping and developing my career. Young People need to appreciate that Social Media is not for entertainment only. Adding on, there was a lot of support from the Zimbabwean young women’s Movement who exude a passion to send a message out on social media such as Grace Chirenje , Glanis Changachirere , Rudo Chigudu, Fungai Machirori, Nyari Mashayamombe and many more. Young Zimbabwean Women should be commended for being visible on the global networks. It has shaped the emergence of a formidable young women’s movement in Zimbabwe.

KVG: Why is it important to collaborate with likeminded organisations other than those in your country?

Nyasha: Sharing knowledge and experiences is critical for drawing strategies for transforming our communities. In that regard, it is important for young people to network and create alliances with other young people to create a unified force that is development oriented. Young people should not wait to be invited into spaces. I suggest they dive into opportunities which are presented to them and add their efforts to create their own space. Uniting our global action is also important for creating an interface for creating best practice knowledge in our advocacy work. It helps young people to interrogate what is working and what is not working. As is, young people will be better able to create new and innovative tactics and strategies for development and to also improve on existing ones. I want ot also highlight that participation in the development is not only prerogative of young people in the non –profit sector. We need young people in the corporate sector to participate more in the social development sector, which is the source of their profits anyway. That absence of unity is a huge gap in the development of Zimbabwe as a whole.

KVG: What has been the contribution of Zimbabwe to the global youth agenda?

Zimbabwe has ratified a number of charters from global multinational institutions such as the UN and African Union. It has proactively shown a commitment to ensure that it protects and makes provision for it’s youth. However there is still a lot which needs to be done in terms of pro-active implementation thereof.  In terms of the effort of young people making personal commitments to the contribution, a lot of young people have been taking up the global leadership space through platforms such the YALI Programme initiated by the US President Obama. We’ve also had young people on Wall Street, in the global fashion Industry, in global makeup Market, we have young people in Hollywood, Young Zimbabweans working for the world bank. All that is Zimbabwe’s contribution to the global agenda. There is explosive contribution of young people from Zimbabwe into the global, political and economic and social space. Our challenge is that young people are apologetic in their participation thus we are not visible enough. . A lot of young people are influencing the global space but there is not much documentation being done. Adding on there is still no credible measure of young people’s participation on the globe. It should be noted that young people are not just a demographic force. We are ideas, a development force, and above all we are innovation and creativity.

KVG: When talking about creating space for young people .what immediate action need to be taken in order to achieve this?

As I have already said young people should not wait to be invited to spaces. If they are absent they can be legally created somehow. They should also make an effort to link up and take advantage of the social media to create ownership of their own ideas. Secondly, I’ve always advised my mentees that knowledge is an ideal space creator. They must pursue knowledge which in turn will influence their action and make it much more relevant.  Thirdly and I think the most important , young people have been absent from the mainstream policy development space and yet it . It is ideal for young people to engage with policy makers interactively.

Their action should be premised on engaging more and less confrontation to get their way through.

KVG: As a Campaign Strategist, What message can you give to young people out there so that so that their voices can be heard.

If you want to be heard speak up and speak well. Thank KVG for this opportunity. It is my hope that young people begin to see the need to engage globally in order to influence their local action.

if you want to be heard ,speak up and speak well!!
if you want to be heard ,speak up and speak well!!
Include my voice

My Journey towards Global Networking


if you want to be heard ,speak up and speak well!!
if you want to be heard ,speak up and speak well!!

KVG: Today on the show we have Nyasha Sengayi, from the Source International. She is here to discuss her experience on youth participation in the global space as a young person. Welcome Nyasha to the show.

Nyasha: Thank you KVG. It’s good to be back on the show.

KVG: Okay , Nyasha what has been your involvement in global networks for advocacy.

Nyasha : Thank you KVG, I am a campaign strategist , I design campaign s to advance women’s rights mostly. I started  networking with global networks at the inception of my career when I was selected to be part of the ISIS – WICCE- ( Women’s Cross Cultural Exchange Programme) which was premised on the creation of movement building on the globe. Based on the experience that I got from the training and the motivation to send a message for peace, I decided to start Source International which employs campaigns based programming and Applied research to deliver it’s core mandate of attaining dignified futures for women.. From there, I was priviledged able to work with V Day on a Campaign dubbed One Billion Rising which was drawn from the UN Women statistic which states that one in three women will be raped or suffer from some kind of physical abuse; that translates to One Billion Women being physically abused at any given time in their life. This campaign has been running in more than 207 countries and we have been able to work on trying to show the world what a billion people look like as we dance on the streets across the world. Moreover, I was selected to the Global Youth Ambassador together with other young people from Africa and Europe by the Swedish Youth Council. My role is to deliberate on strategies on how to get young people to build and create stronger institutions through internal democracy as a way of making our activism more efficient and effective. We are also using the platform to discuss challenges pertinent to young people and to come up with strategies that will strengthen our participation in any space.

KVG: Woow , Thank you Nyasha . So how can one become part of these Global Networks?

Nyasha: There are so many opportunities for young people to participate in Global networks and they can be taken up on vertical and horizontal levels. Most importantly, young people need to be knowledgeable and nature a culture of researching on their areas of interests or the networks that can better shape what they are mostly passionate about. In wake of this, they are lot of opportunities for reputable fellowship programmes online which young people can be a part of. Adding on, Social Media has provided an opportunity for young people to expand their participation in a lot of online process. The internet has opportunities for young people to participate in Webinars, e-conferences, LinkedIn platforms and groups as well. All these offer information on diverse global movements which young people can join in. My journey to becoming Campaign strategist was mostly shaped by my online interaction particularly on Social Media. My interactions with key global women’s rights leaders such as Barbara Mhangami, Monique Wilson, Susan Swan, Colani Hlaswako and many others were pertinent in shaping and developing my career. Young People need to appreciate that Social Media is not for entertainment only. Adding on, there was a lot of support from the Zimbabwean young women’s Movement who exude a passion to send a message out on social media such as Grace Chirenje , Glanis Changachirere , Rudo Chigudu, Fungai Machirori, Nyari Mashayamombe and many more. Young Zimbabwean Women should be commended for being visible on the global networks. It has shaped the emergence of a formidable young women’s movement in Zimbabwe.

KVG: Why is it important to collaborate with likeminded organisations other than those in your country?

Nyasha: Sharing knowledge and experiences is critical for drawing strategies for transforming our communities. In that regard, it is important for young people to network and create alliances with other young people to create a unified force that is development oriented. Young people should not wait to be invited into spaces. I suggest they dive into opportunities which are presented to them and add their efforts to create their own space. Uniting our global action is also important for creating an interface for creating best practice knowledge in our advocacy work. It helps young people to interrogate what is working and what is not working. As is, young people will be better able to create new and innovative tactics and strategies for development and to also improve on existing ones. I want ot also highlight that participation in the development is not only prerogative of young people in the non –profit sector. We need young people in the corporate sector to participate more in the social development sector, which is the source of their profits anyway. That absence of unity is a huge gap in the development of Zimbabwe as a whole.

KVG: What has been the contribution of Zimbabwe to the global youth agenda?

Zimbabwe has ratified a number of charters from global multinational institutions such as the UN and African Union. It has proactively shown a commitment to ensure that it protects and makes provision for it’s youth. However there is still a lot which needs to be done in terms of pro-active implementation thereof.  In terms of the effort of young people making personal commitments to the contribution, a lot of young people have been taking up the global leadership space through platforms such the YALI Programme initiated by the US President Obama. We’ve also had young people on Wall Street, in the global fashion Industry, in global makeup Market, we have young people in Hollywood, Young Zimbabweans working for the world bank. All that is Zimbabwe’s contribution to the global agenda. There is explosive contribution of young people from Zimbabwe into the global, political and economic and social space. Our challenge is that young people are apologetic in their participation thus we are not visible enough. . A lot of young people are influencing the global space but there is not much documentation being done. Adding on there is still no credible measure of young people’s participation on the globe. It should be noted that young people are not just a demographic force. We are ideas, a development force, and above all we are innovation and creativity.

KVG: When talking about creating space for young people .what immediate action need to be taken in order to achieve this?

As I have already said young people should not wait to be invited to spaces. If they are absent they can be legally created somehow. They should also make an effort to link up and take advantage of the social media to create ownership of their own ideas. Secondly, I’ve always advised my mentees that knowledge is an ideal space creator. They must pursue knowledge which in turn will influence their action and make it much more relevant.  Thirdly and I think the most important , young people have been absent from the mainstream policy development space and yet it . It is ideal for young people to engage with policy makers interactively.

Their action should be premised on engaging more and less confrontation to get their way through.

KVG: As a Campaign Strategist, What message can you give to young people out there so that so that their voices can be heard.

If you want to be heard speak up and speak well. Thank KVG for this opportunity. It is my hope that young people begin to see the need to engage globally in order to influence their local action.

Include my voice

Xenophobia by Takura O Theo Mambonde


utter madness, utter madness
Dressed in animal skin so he spoke like one
Howling words of hurt; we are hurt

Reckless utterances by a semi-dressed king
The nakedness reflecting mental nudity
Devoid of sound judgement; pea brains
Verbal diarrhoea; words spoken without thought
Indlu elikhulu yisikhulumi ukuvuza (the house of a loud mouth leaks)
An army of lions led by a sheep wins not the war
An army of sheep led by a lion wins the war
Chinotanga kuwora pahove musoro!!!!
“It is the head that rots first on a fish”
Ukhasela eziko
The king is an infant crawling to the fireplace
Naked king; Kuhlonishwa kabili
“Respect is two way”
Words spoken by the king buffles the mind
Goodwill Zwelithini without the goodwil
Insumansumane imali yamakhanda.
Zwelithini; what say we?
Ilizwe lithi “Without a leader, black ants are confused.”